Mondays don’t ease in. They enter. They kick the door open wearing business casual, carrying a clipboard, and acting like your entire life is already behind schedule.
You open your eyes and suddenly the world expects you to be motivated, functional, emotionally regulated, ambitious, hydrated, grateful, responsive, and wearing pants with a waistband that doesn’t emotionally disrespect you.
Day 21 - Today I wasn’t insightful. I wasn’t poetic. I didn’t have a revelation waiting politely at the bottom of my coffee cup. I didn’t crack anything open. I didn’t fall apart. I didn’t stitch myself back together in some neat, inspirational way. There was no big feeling demanding airtime, no sharp edge begging to be explored. And honestly? A part of me kept waiting for something to happen just so I’d know what to do with myself.
Day 20 - Today was cold. Not dramatic cold. Not romantic movie cold. Just that gray, damp, bone-aware cold that makes the world feel hushed. The kind of quiet snow brings before it decides whether it’s actually going to show up. It reminded me a little of yesterday, honestly. That same suspended feeling where nothing is wrong, but nothing is settled either.
My dog, Roger, has zero responsibilities, pays no bills, contributes absolutely nothing to household chores, and still somehow manages to teach me more about life than any human I have ever dated.
He has never had a job. He does not understand mirrors. He does not comprehend taxes, heartbreak, overthinking, screenshots sent to the group chat, or the phrase “just circling back.” He does, however, understand me. Sometimes better than I understand myself.
Day 19 - Today was Friday. Which feels worth noting only because my body noticed it before my brain did. There was no dramatic shift, no emotional crescendo, no “this-changes-everything” moment. Just that subtle loosening in the air that Fridays brings. Like the world collectively exhaled and forgot to tell me what to do next. Structure dissolved. Time got slippery. My thoughts immediately took that as permission to wander unsupervised. Classic.