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  • The Strange Math of Healing

    Day 27 – Healing has the weirdest math. One day can feel like ten steps forward. You wake up and the air feels breathable again. You drink your coffee and actually taste it instead of using it as…

  • The Apartment

    Day 26 – Something strange has happened to my apartment. It’s peaceful now. Quiet in a way that would probably look beautiful from the outside. The kind of quiet people romanticize when they say things like “I just…

  • Still Carrying It

    Day 25 – Today felt heavier than yesterday. Not in a dramatic way. Nothing spiked. Nothing fell apart. It was more like the cumulative weight of all the days stacked together finally made itself known. The kind of…

  • Still Continuing

    Day 24 – Today didn’t announce itself. No sharp edge. No revelation. No emotional weather event rolling through to give the day a shape. It was just there. Waiting to be lived. Which sounds simple until you realize…

  • Wintering: When Life Gets Real and Rewrites You

    Day 23 – Lately I’ve been thinking about how real life can get. Not in a philosophical armchair way, but in the oh wow, this shit is actually happening to me way. The kind of real that doesn’t wait for you to be ready, doesn’t ask if you’ve built enough emotional scaffolding first. It just…

  • Three Weeks Later

    Day 22 – Today marks three weeks since I reported what happened to me. I don’t have a big reaction to that sentence. No dramatic swell. No collapse. Just a quiet awareness that settles in my body like a fact I can’t argue with. Three weeks isn’t long. Three weeks is also everything. It’s strange…

  • Still Here, Even When I’m Not Interesting

    Day 21 – Today I wasn’t insightful. I wasn’t poetic. I didn’t have a revelation waiting politely at the bottom of my coffee cup. I didn’t crack anything open. I didn’t fall apart. I didn’t stitch myself back together in some neat, inspirational way. There was no big feeling demanding airtime, no sharp edge begging…

  • Cold Enough to Be Quiet

    Day 20 – Today was cold. Not dramatic cold. Not romantic movie cold. Just that gray, damp, bone-aware cold that makes the world feel hushed. The kind of quiet snow brings before it decides whether it’s actually going to show up. It reminded me a little of yesterday, honestly. That same suspended feeling where nothing…

  • Friday, Apparently

    Day 19 – Today was Friday. Which feels worth noting only because my body noticed it before my brain did. There was no dramatic shift, no emotional crescendo, no “this-changes-everything” moment. Just that subtle loosening in the air that Fridays brings. Like the world collectively exhaled and forgot to tell me what to do next.…

  • The Sadness Haze & The News That Didn’t Know How to Feel Good

    Day 18 – Today was trying. Not catastrophic, not apocalyptic, just mentally exhausting in that “I’m doing everything right but still feel wrong” kind of way. I was fairly productive. The annoying kind of productive where you get things done but feel like you did nothing at all. But the sadness haze? She’s still here.