Things I No Longer Romanticize
Day 123 - There are things I no longer romanticize. Chaos, for one. I used to think chaos was interesting in a way that made it easier to tolerate. Not good, exactly. Just charged. Alive. Full of possibility.
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The Soft Rebellion of Wanting More
Day 122 - Lately I’ve been thinking about how quietly rebellious it is to want more. Not in the greedy, self-help, “upgrade your life in five easy steps” kind of way. I mean in the real way. In the woman way. In the aftermath way.
April at the Door
Day 121 - I can feel April standing at the door. Not literally, obviously. If the months start developing physical bodies and showing up at my apartment unannounced, then I have significantly bigger problems than healing. But still.
March Is a Strange Little Animal
Day 120 - March is a strange little animal. Too restless to be winter. Too erratic to be spring. One day it’s soft and almost flirtatious, and the next it’s throwing cold wind at your face like it found your optimism personally offensive.
The First Signs of Spring
Day 119 - Something in the air felt different today. Not in the dramatic, movie-trailer way where the season changes and suddenly everyone is reborn in flattering light with an acoustic soundtrack and emotional closure. I mean subtly.
Anger Deserves Better Lighting
Day 118 - I think anger gets treated badly. Not all anger. Men’s anger gets full production support. Men’s anger gets microphones, metaphors, think pieces, justification, history, context, room to breathe.
What They Don’t Carry
Day 117 - There are things other people do not carry. That sounds obvious until you are the one carrying them. Because from the outside, I think a lot of suffering looks invisible if it is not actively screaming.
The Insult of Continuation
Day 116 - There is something deeply insulting about being expected to just keep living. That’s the thought I had today. Not because I want my life to stop. Not because I am giving up.
Roger Has Opinions
Day 115 - If Roger were a person, he would absolutely be one of those men who refers to himself as “a thought leader” and then immediately falls down two stairs while holding an iced coffee. I say this with love.
The Audacity of a Nervous System
Day 114 - My nervous system has the audacity of a mediocre man with a podcast. That is the thought I had today. Because tell me why this bitch...